The Life He Chose He Now Regrets

In November 2014 a man named John Jerryson wrote a story sharing his disappointment about how the life he chose he now regrets. After years spent doing a job he grew to dislike and turning his back on his life dreams, he felt compelled to share his story in the hope it will inspire people not to make the same mistake.

He shares his feelings and thoughts about how he felt in his 20s and how he now feels that after 20 plus years, the life he chose he now regrets and feels he has wasted his life, by pursuing a career of money instead of following his passion and dreams.

His story and message is well worth reading and serves as a bit of a wake-up call to all ages as his message not to chase the wrong things and end up with a life of no purpose where you will feel like you have died inside.

‘ALL MY DREAMS, MY PASSION, GONE. IN A STEADY 9-7 JOB. 6 DAYS A WEEK. FOR 26 YEARS. I REPEATEDLY CHOSE THE SAFE PATH FOR EVERYTHING, WHICH EVENTUALLY CHANGED WHO I WAS.’


Hi, my name’s John. I’ve been lurking for a while, but I’ve finally made an account to post this. I need to get my life off my chest.

About me. I’m a 46-year-old banker and I have been living my whole life the opposite of how I wanted. All my dreams, my passion, gone. In a steady 9-7 job. 6 days a week. For 26 years. I repeatedly chose the safe path for everything, which eventually changed who I was.

Today I found out my wife has been cheating on me for the last 10 years. My son feels nothing for me. I realised I missed my father’s funeral FOR NOTHING. I didn’t complete my novel, travelling the world, helping the homeless. All these things I thought I knew to be a certainty about myself when i was in my late teens and early twenties. If my younger self had met me today, I would have punched myself in the face. I’ll get to how those dreams were crushed soon.

Let me start with a description of me when I was 20. It seemed only yesterday when I was sure I was going to change the world. People loved me, and I loved people. I was innovative, creative, spontaneous, a risk-taker and I was great with people. I had two dreams. The first was writing a utopic/dystopic book.

The second, was travelling the world and helping the poor and homeless. I had been dating my wife for four years by then. Young love. She loved my spontaneity, my energy, my ability to make people laugh and feel loved.

I knew my book was going to change the world. I would show the perspective of the ‘bad’ and the ‘twisted’, showing my viewers that everybody thinks differently, that people never think what they do is wrong. I was 70 pages through when I was 20. I am still 70 pages in, at 46.

By 20, I had backpacked around New Zealand and the Philippines. I planned to do all of Asia, then Europe, then America (I live in Australia by the way). To date, I have only been to New Zealand and the Philippines.

Now, we get to where it all went wrong. My biggest regrets. I was 20. I was the only child. I needed to be stable. I needed to take that graduate job, which would dictate my whole life.

To devote my entire life in a 9-7 job. What was I thinking? How could I live, when the job was my life? After coming home, I would eat dinner, prepare my work for the following day, and sleep at 10 pm, to wake up at 6 am the following day. God, I can’t remember the last time I’ve made love to my wife.

Yesterday, my wife admitted to cheating on me for the last 10 years – 10 years! That seems like a long time, but I can’t comprehend it. It doesn’t even hurt. She says it’s because I’ve changed. I’m not the person I was. What have I been doing in the last 10 years? Outside of work, I really can’t say anything. Not being a proper husband. Not being ME.

Who am I? What happened to me? I didn’t even ask for a divorce, or yell at her, or cry. I felt NOTHING. Now I can feel a tear as I write this. But not because my wife has been cheating on me, but because I am now realising I have been dying inside.

What happened to that fun-loving, risk-taking, energetic person that was me, hungering to change the world? I remember being asked on a date by the most popular girl in the school, but declining her for my now-wife. God, I was really popular with the girls in high school. In university/college too. But I stayed loyal. I didn’t explore. I studied every day.

Remember all that backpacking and book-writing I told you about? That was all in the first few years of college. I worked part-time and splurged all that I had earned. Now, I save every penny. I don’t remember a time I spend anything on anything fun. On anything for myself. What do I even want now?

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My father passed ten years ago. I remember getting calls from mom, telling me he was getting sicker and sicker. I was getting busier and busier, on the verge of a big promotion. I kept putting my visit off, hoping in my mind he would hold on. He died, and I got my promotion. I haven’t seen him in 15 years.

When he died, I told myself it didn’t matter that I hadn’t seen him. Being an atheist, I rationalized that being dead, it wouldn’t matter anyway. WHAT WAS I THINKING? Rationalizing everything, making excuses to put things off. Excuses. Procrastination. It all leads to one thing, nothing. I rationalized that financial security was the most important thing.

I now know, that it definitely is not. I regret doing nothing with my energy when I had it. My passions. My youth. I regret letting my job take over my life. I regret being an awful husband, a money-making machine. I regret not finishing my novel, not travelling the world. Not being emotionally there for my son. Being a damn emotionless wallet.

If you’re reading this, and you have a whole life ahead of you, please. Don’t procrastinate. Don’t leave your dreams for later. Relish in your energy, your passions. Don’t stay on the internet with all your spare time (unless your passion and dream needs it).

Please, do something with your life while your young. DO NOT settle down at 20. DO NOT forget your friends, your family. Yourself. Do NOT waste your life. Your ambitions. Like I did mine. Do not be like me.

Sorry for the long post, just had to get it out there.

I realised I let procrastination and money stop me from pursuing my passions when I was younger, and now I am dead inside, old and tired.

Welp…have a great weekend!


The life he chose he now regrets, I hope will serve as a wake-up call not to fall into the same trap as John Jerryson. The sad thing is about this story is that even though he is only 46, he is showing all the classic telltale signs of someone who as given up. Doing a job that drains your energy and puts out your inner light and spark will do that to you.

All you have is right here and now, don’t procrastinate or think that the time to start working on our dreams can wait – I will do it someday. Do not wait, someday will never come. DO IT NOW!

Rhys Morton-Rosshttps://www.inspiosphere.com
Rhys is the Founder, Chief Dreamer, Visionary and Protagonist. He is the idea and vision generator behind INSPIOSPHERE. He is responsible for dreaming up new ideas to create environments that both inspire and empower people to tap into their spiritual power of knowing their life calling that paves the way to their limitless potential and ONE BIG LIFE DREAM.
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